i'm really sorry that my friends have to see me breaking down in public again.
and, i'm really grateful that they tried their best to make me feel better.
she told me i need time and things will be better when i'm finally sick and tired of everything.
i believe in that.
i will eventually be okay again.
he won't care how i feel.
he won't care if i'm still standing here struggling to move on.
he won't bother to see the tears on my face.
he will never take a second look at me anymore.
he won't care whether i'm still alive or not.
all that matters to him now, is her.
ditching all our memories to the trash bin and recreating the oh-so-sweet memories all over again with her.
whispering sweet nothings to her like he would to me.
telling her how much she's important to him like he would to me.
hug her tightly when she's down and reassuring her everything will be alright like he would to me.
telling her everything will lasts forever like he would to me.
telling her she's the girl he had ever loved so deeply like he did to me.
everyone knows i'm trying to put on a mask in school.
trying to be my bubbly old self.
trying hard to tell him i've move on.
and, everyone knows that i'm trying too hard.
i tried not to think.
i tried not to feel.
i tried to be happier.
but instead.. i think more, i feel more and i'm bleeding inside.
i'm like a shattered glass that has just been mend.
try to touch it again and it'll break into pieces.
this is how fragile i am right now.
there's no use trying to put on a strong front.
it's not me anymore.
seriously, who am i?
Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight
- Learning to Fall/ Boys like Girls
and, i still miss you like crazy.
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